“Not knowing is far worse than knowing what was wrong.”
Have you ever been in a dilemma where you want to say everything , but don’t. Because you are not sure how the person you want to say everything to would react. And that, their reaction is what scares you the most. And this being scared feeling eats you up inside, slowly. Then one moment you sit and write it all down and then again wonder just before finally hitting ‘send’, you don’t . You delete the whole thing because you don’t even want to send it by mistake and later regret, so you delete it completely. But you wonder that it might have turned it all right, if you had just sent that message. Because not knowing is far worse than knowing what was wrong, if there was anything at all. But then again, you feel that this confused state of mind is a much better place to be than making the worse of the two alternatives happen. Maybe everything is all okay. Maybe you are just over thinking. Maybe it is all in your head. You console yourself that everything is just normal.
Then one day, later the same very day, you just can’t handle this confusion that the mind is creating. The dilemma is just taxing on your work and in turn it is affecting you in more ways than you think it isn’t. And you realize that your heart is sinking and that it is being pulled down as if it is getting heavier with each moment that you are contemplating. You feel that it is not strong enough to handle such pressure; the pressure of not-knowing, the pressure of what might, the pressure of what if, the pressure of this dilemma, and everything combined. So, you sit down and search for that previously deleted text. You write it all over again anyway, trying to choose the right words but that taxing of your mind by that pressure just doesn’t let you have a proper train of thought. But somehow you write that heartfelt, or to be precise whatever is weighing you down, and finally send it, after contemplating for a few hours.
You regret immediately for even sending the message. May be it was too short, or may be it was too much, maybe it was inappropriate, but you shouldn’t have sent that in the first place. You curse yourself for sending. Oh god, what have you done? How can i undo this? Shit! Shit! Shit! You even feel the whole universe seems to say so. You hold your head in your hands for making that mistake. But yet, you wait. You wait for a reply. Each second feels like an hour and each ticking sound of your watch makes you more and more nervous. You are this close to having a nervous breakdown. And then the status change to “Online“. Your heart skips a beat. You start to sweat. The message is now in read state. And you can feel your heart in your mouth. And yet you wait. You wait for a reply. There is none. A few seconds pass away, and yet there is no reply. You wait for more time, perhaps she is writing a lengthy reply. Or maybe it wasn’t well received and this was the end of it. And despite all that’s weighing you down, you cling to that tiny thread of hope. You keep clinging to that thread which seems to be breaking off. But there is no reply, and you find yourself falling down and everything seems to flash in front of your eyes, but you still don’t know what was the thing that you did was wrong and led to this distance. Even during that fall, your mind is making all the scenarios to make sense of all this that left you in splits. You cruse your overthinking stupid brain. And gradually, you die of overthinking and anticipation and all that overwhelming feelings. But, but.. that dilemma still haunts you even after.
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P.S. I haven’t written for a while. It has literally been ages, since I wrote. I haven’t been able to bring myself to write. I have lost that train of thought and what I earlier thought made it more broken. But I hope to get back to it, as soon as possible. I really apologize for not being able to read any of the blog posts. I really look forward to doing it from now on.
It’s alright friend . Sometime it happens atleast you tried to write something nd it’s nice . It’s a real dilemma which all of us have gone through once in our lives . One can relate👍
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Thank you.
Yeah, I tried.
It is a very difficult dilemma to be in. 😦
Though, I am glad that others could relate, I hope that no one gets to that phase ever.
Fingers crossed.
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Oh, so it means u r facing it in real . Relationship issues
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Hehe. No. I am not the one to get into relationships. But somehow I have come across a similar experience, so just penned it down.
Btw, thanks for reading. 😀
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Welcome . It’s okk. Don’t be depressed . You write really well . U just lost the track but it happens . U r not alone , mh b hu . But I will try to write something soon
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Why, thank you. 😀
How are you so kind? 🙂
Aap bhi jaldi likhoge. I am looking forward to reading your posts. 😀
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Thanks . Yes, I will write soon
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hey good luck with writing 🙂 I and we all are here for you
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Hey, thank you very much. 😀
I am very glad to know and to have your support. You are too kind. 😀
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your welcome you remember you were the one that commented on my post whats in a women purse it was a long time ago i did not forget 🙂
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Wow. You have a great memory.
I remember a sort of a conversation in which you were arguing that women do need a lot of things than us guys, or else it wouldn’t be a good day or something in those lines.
Glad to connect back with you, after such a long time. 😀
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yea same here that is why i was supporting you buddy 😛 old friends
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Hehe. Thank you. 😀
That’s very generous of you. 🙂
Shouldn’t you be sleeping?
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why is this sleeping time
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It isn’t?
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well how do you know if it is :p
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Because I believe that we are in the time zone, so I am pretty sure that this is usually the sleeping time, for most people. 😛
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well for some its sleeping time and for some its morning time lol
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Haha, touche. Fair Point, indeed.
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yup 🙂
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Smart, you are. 😀
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what about you , your also awake
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See, you said it. So, it is sleeping time, but you haven’t slept.
I am thinking about what to write next and just online to see if I could talk to some old friends, like yourself. 😛
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yea but is it sleeping time there too if it is why are you awake
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Yes. It is.
Its 1:57 AM.
I usually sleep late. Like at 3-4AM. 😛
What about you? What time is it and when do you sleep?
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are you from india lol cause the timing match a bit , yea its late but i was watching a reality show so i am awake sadly
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Yup, I am. And I am guessing you are too, am I right?
Which reality show were you watching?
Wait, why sadly?
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cause my sleep is being sacrificed i am watching bigg boss lol
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Offo, Big Boss! Kisko support kar rahe ho aap?
Arey, sleep na, instead of watching Big Boss?
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hmm well i was supporting hina , yea i should sleep instead
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Oh okay.
I don’t follow regularly, so I am not supporting anyone.
You should sleep, but you aren’t.
Waise, what do you do?
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hmm yea i should but do not you read my blog you seem to know nothing . and by the way why do it looks like introduction convo 🙂
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Hey sorry, I haven’t been blogging for a while. So, I have a lot to catch up.
May be it is. Is that okay with you? 🙂
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yea of course its fine
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Thank You. 😀
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what do you do
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I am currently working. Software Engineer.
And you?
Btw, you know Hindi, right? I just assumed that you knew so asked a few questions in Hindi. 😐
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cool yea i know a bit , i am student
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Oh, that’s awesome. What are you studying, if you don’t mind me asking?
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haha why are you a stalker
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Just curious, that’s all.
Oh, well sorry. That wasn’t the intention. I thought you said introductions.
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Won’t ask you any more questions then.
Good Night. 🙂
Take Care.
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hmm i just meant are we on introductions , i was just joking well if you say do i mind yea i do mind a bit though
well good night
take care
i will continue to watch the show 😛
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Yes, I believe we are on introductions.
And I didn’t know that, so my bad. Won’t ask any personal questions.
Still watching the show?
I could continue to talk, though.
Nonetheless, ping me anytime if you wanna talk, I usually respond immediately. 😀
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really you respond immediately
well maybe its because its a bit strange for personal questions not comfortable with time maybe get comfortable
yea i am still watching it
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I usually do.
I understand. Whatever suits you.
Now, went to school, I am assuming. 😬
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yea , thanks
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No problem. 👍🏻😊
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🙂
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I hope you do know that 🙂 is the internet’s most deceiving emoji ever.
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how so ……
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Well, it doesn’t really say that a person is smiling. It seems like a decieving smile, and the internet has somehow come to a conclusion that this might not actually be what it appears to be. And the people who use it, usually use it when they have nothing else to say and imply something like “whatever”.
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well is the internet a scientist lol
you can not apply whatever the meaning of that smile, its a smile meant to show kindness that is how i perceive it and many people here use it , and i do not take it as negatively , and its not something to take negative either instead of writing long replies back a smile is better and it shows kindness 🙂
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Internet is what we make of it.
We both stay in the same time zone, and I am pretty much sure that it’s the same country.
It’s not about spreading negativity or writing long replies. I just told you what the world sees it to be. Well, you seem to have a problem with long replies. So, I will stop it here.
I hope you have a great night. 🙂
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i do not have a problem its a person own priority what they like or dislike short is better but it does not mean i can not write long so don’t underestimate and just as i said the smile is a gesture of kindness and i see it like it i hope you do it too , and for your kind info your assumption is not right
🙂
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Offo, you are taking everything as an offence. Sigh!
You are arguing with me over an emoji. And then you ended up with the same emoji. And for your kind info, what you did there is exactly what I was saying.
🙂
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what I did ? I do not get you and who said smiley is a blah blah blah and means whatever lol
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I would have explained but you still want some time to have a normal conversation, otherwise I would be a stalker. 🙂
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yea what is your problem suddenly lol why so curious in my life suddenly
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I don’t need to have a problem trying to know someone.
I think you take offense easily. And I thought you were the one with the positive vibes. Sigh! You can just tell me to stop commenting, if you don’t like to talk. 🙂
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well you think i have negative vibes?
well yea i can be sensitive whats wrong with that ?
and last i have problem with personal questions i like to be anonymous
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I didn’t say that. How did it even come here.
Yes, you can be sensitive. You are sensitive. I know that you are anonymous. I am too. I can never know who you are even if you told everything.
About the positive-negative vibe : It is not about that. It’s how you tell the other person gives that impression. Should I give an example?
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all your page is full with our comments and so goes for my notifications lol so i think its enough
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I don’t mind.
Oh, I guess you do mind.
Okay, if you say so, kiddo. 🤣
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stop annoying me first you say you thought i have positive vibe sign meaning you do not think it anymore so negative vibe then you say when did i say that and last do not call me kiddo , i am a mature adult , and last just get your head straight
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1. You still have a positive vibe. You always have.
2. You don’t like getting personal.
3. About calling you kiddo, it was a joke. You get so angry so fast.
4. My head has always been straight. Is yours?
5. I wasn’t trying to annoy you. Why do you take wrongly?
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hmmm yea my is straight too
how would you feel if someone calls you old or maybe kid etc you will annoyed too
and okayy wow you answered like a pro lol
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Are you sure? 🤣
Fair point. So, mature adult person you are, right? Got it.
Well, I try to most of the time. 😀
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you say your not trying to be annoying right then you like to make fun not fair
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Yes, I’m not trying to annoy you.
If you don’t like, just let me know. 😬
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and you told me to tell you if i do not want to talk , your not even listening to me plus we both are you can stop too
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Okay fine, seems like you don’t want to talk.
Have a great day. 😊
Take care.
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I want to talk why would I not want to 🙂
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I don’t know.
You keep saying creep, stalker, likewise. When another person is trying to have a conversation, it feels like you don’t want to.
That’s why I said. 🙂
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just take it in a fun way not take to heart I just said what I felt like cause few things were weird other than that creep was in a fun way 🙂
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I’m taking it in a fun way. But you don’t take it in a fun way. You take it personally. 🙂
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well few things are meant to be taken personally like teasing , :0
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No. Actually, they are not meant to. 🙂
But then again, it’s your opinion. So okay. I understand. 🙂
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well you can not like certain things and you can say I do not like it same goes for you if you do not like something I say just let me know 🙂
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Yeah. I understand.
I will. 🙂
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plus check out my poem you just love to talk here go check it and you can comment too if you want , actually i find it really good so just want to know how is it 🙂
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Sure I’ll check it out.
Yeah I do like to talk here. 😜😂
And I’ll comment also.
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haha thanks its called replaced by the way 🙂 take care
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Acha ok. I’ll read.
You too. 🙂
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thanks i am still suffering from cold so for now you take care 🙂
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Oh is it? You should take more care then. 🙂
I’ll.
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yea maybe 🙂 hey when will you read it
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Take rest also. 🙂
I just read. 🙂
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yea sure
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Ok. 🙂
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you must be working now 🙂
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No, not exactly.
Out for lunch.
You had lunch?
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nope i did not even had breakfast yet cause i am lazy
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Wait, what?
Go and have something to eat first. 😳😳
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Did you have lunch ?
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nope
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Offo.
Go and have na?
Why are you not eating anything?
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yea i had thanks
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What about dinner ?
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yea how is your day
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That’s great.
But why did you have your lunch so late and why didn’t you have your breakfast? :O
My day was good. We are playing this Secret Santa thing at office and selecting a gift is so hard. 😦
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laziness
why is it hard?
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I know you told that you were lazy.
But it’s about health.
Improper food timings might not affect now, but in the future it will affect one’s health.
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i am not going to get old soon lol
and plus i agree i mean i realize and why you lecturing me
anyway thanks for the concern
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You might feel so, but getting old is very fast. 🙂
Arey, I am not lecturing. I was just sharing my opinion.
And I hope you eat on time, please. 🙂
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yea it is fast but not that fast when your just an adult hehe so stop worrying about it , i have no desire to imagine myself as an old lady
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Oh, you were fasting? For what?
Fine, I told what I thought of saying.
Hey, it will be your future. Imagine with kids also, hehe. 😀
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not fast i meant getting old is fast but not that fast and also , i have no intention to imagine so far why you imagine yourself married kids and then get old lol ?
typical life dream adventure
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Oh my bad.
Don’t worry, I will come to your marriage. hehe. 😛
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no thanks have no intention of marriage you can marry i will visit yours
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I also don’t have any intention of marriage.
But I feel like I will definitely come to yours. You will invite me, right? 😛
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how about I invite you to my funeral instead 🙂 its a better idea
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Oh no.
I will come to your wedding only, for sure. It’s a great idea. 😀
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you just love to annoy me then
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Hehe. Not exactly. But I would love to come to your wedding. Hey, I will join the dance classes as well just to dance in your wedding. Just give me a date. 😀
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whats wrong with you , i told you i have no interest in marriage , still you are like this
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You are like in the last teenage year, right? By the time you complete college, you will get a proposal to get married. I am just telling your future. 😛
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sigh even if I get one I have no intention lol , and did salman khan and susmitan san married nope ? so you can marry i will come instead lol but keep me out of it
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They are different. But I am pretty sure that you will. And I will definitely come. What kind of food do you have in marriages? 😛
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frogs , snakes
wanna eat them lol
hey stop it , i am not enjoying it stop being an OLD GRANDMA what about you
your working you must be engaged and ready to mingle this year
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Sigh.
I am pretty sure that won’t be in the menu. I will come and check na. 😛
I am being your supportive friend who wants to attend your marriage, dance and eat food. 😀
I am ready to mingle but not to get engaged or married. 😀
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are you hungry or you do not have a mean lol
how about I treat to a meal instead why make me bakra for your own fun
see your at the age of marriage but you do not want to get married and here your after me like an annoying aunt
and for the last time its my choice do not bother 🙂
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I’m hungry.
Yeah, that sounds great. Treat me to a meal. Also invite me to your marriage.
Arey, you’ll enjoy getting married. Just wait and see. You’ll only invite me happily.
I just want to help you fulfill your dream of getting married. That’s all. Not trying to be annoying or anything. 😜
Fine fine. I won’t. 🙂
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if its that good thing why not you get married?
plus you have not read my blog or you would know i do not have really good thoughts on marriage 🙂
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Because I don’t want to. 🤷🏻♂️
Like I have said, I haven’t been online for a long time. Will your blog soon.
🙂
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same here DO NOT WANT TOO 🙂
yea yea i know
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Fine fine. 🙂
Won’t speak about your marriage. 🙂
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no but you seem to really like the topic looks like its your deepest desire at the moment lol
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Lol. No.
But it is a great topic to annoy someone. See, you got so annoyed so fast. 😛
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yup i got annoyed HAPPY
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I know you got annoyed.
But you are angry as well. So, not happy. 😦
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haha yeah its not an interesting topic you see 🙂
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Yeah, I know. That’s why it is annoying for you. And you get angry for the same reason. 🙂
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yup
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🙂
Yup.
🙂
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i wanted to ask whats your profile picture ?
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I wanted some dark picture, you because my heart is all dark. That’s why this one. 🙂
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dark dark dark when will the light come hmm
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No light.
Only darkness.
That’s why I love your positive approach. 🙂
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i do not think your that negative lol, you just have to realize it
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Okay, so here’s the thing.
I am sort of negative, but I don’t want others to be the same. So, I want them to have a positive outlook at things and try my best to not follow the path I had followed. 🙂
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hmm all the best then 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂
But I am all dark inside out. 🙂
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is this something to say with two smiles told you one is enough its like torture to the eyes
and i did not say you do not like colours i just love them a lot and boys usually like black a lot
and about you being dark inside our my blog is inspirational you will fly soon lol 😛
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Offo. Okay. I told you right? That I use a lot of smileys. It became a habit. Anyhow will control.
Yes, that is true. I, especially love black.
I hope to see your inspiration hitting me soon. 🙂
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haha are you annoyed , well you critized me first on it and too much is annoying
yea see i told you men love black that is why your blog is all black 😛 just kididng
and well i will hope so its for motivation
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You are annoyed. I am not. It became my habit, so it is a bit difficult to stop all of a sudden.
Well, think it like that only. I love black and thats why I have all black.
Your blog definitely is. Will recommend to other people as well. 😀
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you said offo it means your annoyed I am not
yea yea its okay you can have black as you love it
haha i do not know about the last one who are you going to recommend ghosts
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You are very smart, aren’t you?
I was a bit annoyed, Happy? 😛
Yes, exactly. I love black. 😀
Other people (bloggers) who might need it. I can write a blog post for you as well.
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yea I am smart lol
YEAH i am happy 🙂
and well you do not need too thanks anyway
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Yes, you are smart, indeed. 🙂
Ofcourse you are happy.
I might. Usually, at the year end I write about people who have played an important part in the year, so I might as well include yours. 😀
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i have not played any imp part :0
and well what can i say else
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You don’t have to. I write about people who are different and I come to admire them.
Do you have to say something? 😛
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hmm not very much i think
do you admire me lol
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Ofcourse, I do.
Why? Is it hard to believe?
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well it is hard too , i do not believe this one 🙂
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Ouch.
Well, you can check about that in the year end blog post whether I was telling the truth or not. 🙂
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hmm do not do it it will be like wrong i think
do you find the night terrifying sometimes
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It would be wrong, if I was lying. But I am not. You will see anyway.
No, Actually. I find peace at the night. There is no one around, just me, and the silence all around, peaceful and serene.
You know what I am at a coffee shop right now. I would have shared the photo, but I can’t here in the comment section. 😛
What about you? Do you find the nights terrifying sometimes?
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i was like why he is not replying now i know this long reply oh my my , your right i like short things more 🙂
hmm well if your writing still write something good then 😛
well you can write about the coffee ,
well yea the night is like when all sad thoughts comes to you when in the day your busy
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Yeah, long reply. 😛
Of course I will write good things about you. Also about how smart you are. 😀
The coffee is great. The weather is a bit cold and the people are little scarce. I thought of writing something today, but couldn’t.
Well, sad thoughts is what makes me write. But lately, I am not using it effectively. I am just being so lazy that I haven’t written anything. 😦
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hmm is not it late to be out ?
not make fun of me okay 😛
and well i am not a coffee lover but green tea love it
you can write about good nice things too , yea i also have a couple of idea to write about but i am a perfectionist so lets see
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It is late. But not too late to be out.
Offo, I’ll not. I will tell only good things. 😜
I love coffee. I just had two cups of coffee.
Nice things….like you ? 😉
You don’t have to be a perfectionist to write. Just a passion for writing is enough. I hope you do write, soon. 🙂
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haha well its late be careful
and what you mean nice things like me are you trying to flirt lol
and about me writing i do not know if i do not like it or its not good i will not be ha[[y with it so yup perfection is necessary for me but i will write my last post was two or one day ago so maybe tomorrow
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Yeah, I will be. Thank you. 🙂
I just came back home, btw. 😀
Oh no. 😛
Just telling the facts. You are a nice person. That’s what I am telling.
You write pretty well. So, you will be happy with the post that you will write.
I hope you write it soon, will definitely read it. 😀
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yea yea you don’t know me 🙂
if i am nice or not
well why are you putting pressure on me and like saying i will read it i am not writing it you will judge and say it did happend in your life so sad or whatever i really hate that lol
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Yes, I don’t know you.
That is why as far as I know, you are a sweet and nice person. So, that.
Arey no, no pressure. Just trying to motivate you and support you.
Offo, I won’t judge you. Why do you think so?
No, nothing happened in my life so sad. But that’s story for some other day.
You really hate what? The pressure?
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Hmm you will not get it 😛
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If you tell me, I might. 🙂
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by the way its pretty now thanks to you lol just kidding okay bye
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Oh okay.
You’re welcome. Hehe. 😛
Well, then Good Night. Take Care. 😀
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Yea i could not sleep thats what happena when you form a bad routine
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I guess you might have slept by now.
Well, then you should change your routine. 🙂
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Hey do not you find this place hard to communicate
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I do find it hard to communicate. I just couldn’t say anything because I thought you will call me creep or stalking or that you wanted to be anonyous, if I ask for your email it.
Anyway…
Do you think email would be a good option?
If you think so, email me at : shadowsinmidnight@gmail.com
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Ok
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Thank you. 🙂
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Just please let me know if you have sent me a message.
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why were you waiting i was busy with few things
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I didn’t know that. For a second I thought that you didn’t want to talk on email. So, just messaged. 😛
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done
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Thanks. Got it. 😀
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hey one smile is also enough i think you use it too annoy me lol:)
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Haha no… 🙂
I just use a lot of smileys generally. 🙂
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yea never you used them just showing off
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I am not using here. But come on Whatsapp, you will see how much I use. 😛
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you just want me to come on whatsapp for your seeing your smiles no thanks , but who was the one saying the disadvantage about it etc
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Exactly, come and check there. 😛
No one was saying any disadvantages of using it. But you think I am showing off. So.
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what about anonymous then ? plus no need cause you learned it from me right 😛
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You can still be anonymous.
Okay fine fine. 🙂
Yeah, that I did. 😛
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are not you going to ask about my profile pic 😛
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Yes, I was typing the same question on the other comment.
So, what is your profile picture about?
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its traditional wedding dress as you can I found it on pin , its really beautiful and as you know i am a colors lover so yea
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Lehanga or something it is called, am I right?
It does look beautiful.
I do like colours too. You should see my other blog : I use most colours there. And more over I have a photography blog as well. So imagine that. 😀
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how the hell am i going to see your other blogs ? lol when i only know this one
and about what its called it does not matter but yeah its called that traditional dress is better
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Haha, you could see, but then again anonymous, so it is very difficult.
I don’t want people judging me differently for the the thoughts that put up here. That is why I seperated from the other blog.
I have heard that Lehange looks great and girls love them. There are many traditional wears from Sarees to chudidaars. Though I know nothing of them.
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why tell me then if your not going to show me lol
well yea people can judge and they will its there job but we should not let them in or influence us
just write what you feel like happy or sad
but lehnga is mostly used for wedding so its a traditional wear
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Because I wanted you to know. That’s all. Are you interested in knowing ?
Yes, exactly.That’s why I have this blog, where I don’t have to fear about that thing.
Acha okay. I don’t know much about dresses anyway.
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haha why you do not know are you not in india ?
yep i am interested of course i am
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I am in India, but I am very poor in Ladies dresses. I don’t understand at all. -_-
Haha, you are interested. Good to know. 😀
Will tell you when you trust me enough. 😉
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hmm well i am having a feeling you want something in return when i start to trust you , you can not be that innocent cause what does me knowing your other blogs have with trust and about dresses why are you poor do not you have cousins sisters etc
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I don’t want anything in return.
This trust is for not judging me or something like that. Because you might find completely different things on my other blog which is not here at all.
I have cousin sisters. But we don’t talk about girl dresses. If I had a sister, I would have known, I guess. 🙂
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oh i see , i understand 🙂
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I am glad you understand. 🙂
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yea its not that hard too
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I am glad to know that. Thank you. 😀
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anyway good night 🙂
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Good night.
You are sleeping early ? 🙂
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yea i can not wake up in the morning if i do not sleep early
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I know. But you usually sleep late. Tomorrow have any work, is it ?
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yup
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Acha ok then. You should probably sleep. 🙂
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yea was just going too :0
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Oh okay. 🙂
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and do not interpret other people smiley 🙂 they can they use it as they please but thinking it means whatever is like insulting that person kindness 🙂
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🙂
I was not undermining your usage of an smiley. I just told what most of the Internet sees it as. 🙂
🙂 Didn’t meant to offend you. 🙂
Or your kindness. 🙂 I really appreciate it. Being so young and having an optimistic view. 🙂. Such a great thing. 🙂
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okay okay so many smiley not needed lol
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🙂 Okay, ma’am. 🙂
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one is enough I THINK
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🙂 Sure? 🙂
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wait a minute where did being so young came how do you know i am young i can be old too 😛
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I Have sixth sense.🙂
And you are young and I know it.
Nah, you can’t be old. 🤷🏻♂️
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you are CREEPY how can your six sense work like this really you must have read my profile
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Nope. I didn’t have to read your profile.
And where is your profile. Now I am curious.
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haha ok
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Are you sharing where your profile is ?
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the thing its not imp i just randomly said
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Ok, should I guess?
I believe you are going to college, am I right?
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Man man man…
That was awesome. I mean I tried many times to write in such manner but I failed almost every time! Your words catch my eyes till the end and I also want to admit that this kind of phase comes to everyone’s life including me.
So keep reading and writing.
Best wishes…
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Why, thank you. 😀
You’re too kind to say that. But I am at my writing’s worst, haven’t been ablet to pen anything. So, started off with something what I sort of was going through.
It should make me better knowing that there is someone also going through what I did, but in retropsect, I hope no one goes through that phase, at all.
Thank you.
Happy Blogging. 😀
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When you write about something people assume its about you when in rare case its true
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Well, that’s true. I completely agree with you on this one. 🙂
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I believe you’ve got it back. Nothing to worry about this is great
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Why, thank you. 🙂
You are too kind to say that. I hope so to. 🙂
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Oh my god this is just too relatable! The way you’ve brought out the emotion in this is amazing. Great post!
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As much as I would company, I would rather prefer not to have company in this situation. I hope you never get to such a phase. 🙂
Why, thank you. You are too kind to say that. 😀
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Thank you! I reached that phase and thankfully passed it, too – I’m in a better place now 😊 you will be too, just keep your head up high!
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I am very glad to hear that. 🙂
Thank you. I hope so too. 🙂
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Stay positive, and good luck!!🍀
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Thank you. 🙂
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That’s a legit dilemma to he honest! But you know what, things get easier when you say things not expecting any reaction from the other side. And when you get it, I’m sure we all are smart enough to either dodge it or duel with the words.
And yes, I know that the last part of my comment is not totally relevant.
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It is, is it not? I just came to know when a few people reciprocated the same.
Yes, I understand that. But how can we not expect a reaction? I mean I would like to know the other side of the story as well, atleast an explanation or anything.
But then again, I do get your point. Its like the last thing we want to do and then we are ready to deal with anything that comes next.
Well, it is relevant. It’s a version of the outcome. So completely legit.
Thanks for dropping by my blog and for reading (that too so late). 😀
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Always been a night owl !
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Ditto. Me too. 😀
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Thoughts don’t let me sleep and I can sacrifice my sleep to know what’s my brain thinking about !
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Wow. That’s an interesting way to put it.
So, you can write a new blog post every night. 😛 Just saying.
It’s the same with me as well. But then again, I can’t pen them down. So I end up binge watching Netflix or something. 😛
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Hahaha. Yeah.
Sometimes I pen them down and sometimes I just mentally down. Either ways I end up feeling disconnected from what I actually intend to convey.
So I just get back to my Instagram feed, read the jokes that I’ve written and laugh at them😂
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I can totally relate.
I mean I end up disconnected completely, like off the track and a million miles away. I sometimes even forget what I was writing about. 😛
Oh, could you share your instagram, I will also check them out when I get disconnected.
And binge reading is far better than my binge watching. I wish I did that. 😀
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Yeah sure.
Shre_lanka that’s my Insta id
Well you’re never late to start reading. Just don’t wish it! Hit it over sometime.
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Just followed you. Checking it out. Thanks, btw. 🙂
Yeah, you’re right. I shall do that. Thanks for this as well. 😀
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Anytime.
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😀
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And yeah miles away! Happens but I guess that’s another way to stay focused and not to drift, could be.
I remember writing one, Mindful or Mind-ful, upon finishing it I ended up at confusion like literally. It totally went into a question mark to me.
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Well you are right, in a way. Yeah, it could be, and sometimes is also.
Oh, happens to the best of us. So, did you post it? I mean can I read it?
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Yeah of course you can read that, as long as you don’t question me as to what exactly was I thinking when I was writing it.
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Sure.
Got the post. Reading it.
And also wont ask any questions. Deal. 🙂
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I wish I could say “have a good time reading it.” 😅
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Well you can. 🙂
Okay reading it now..
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I binge read🙈
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You have an amazing talent 👏
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I do?
Why, thank you. 😀 You are too kind to say that. 🙂
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So…relatable !
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Thank you for dropping by. 🙂
As much as I would like to have come company, I hope that no one has to go through this ever.
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Pain can forge deeper relationships than happiness sometimes 🙂
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Touché. Well said.
The thing about pain is the outcome is uncertain. It can be a good one, or else a very painful one. The good ones are the ones that inspire us. The bad one never see the light of the day. Do they?
Did I make any sense ?
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Of course ! I understood you completely. But I also feel, someone whos never experienced heartbreak hasn’t truly lived yet.
Being in the darkness helps you appreciate the light more right ? 😊
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I guess I still haven’t truly lived yet. :p
Well touche again. You have put that brilliantly.
I completely understand what you are saying. I couldn’t agree more.
But then again, some might get consumed by this so called darkness and the light as bright and appealing it might be doesn’t give them the solace that they need.
I guess I am being way too pessimistic here, contrary to your optimism. -_-
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Haha if you ever knew me, you’d trust you hadn’t met a more pessimistic person alive 😂 yeah the darkness could consume and drown, but could very well lift those who conquer it.
Depends on the person i guess 😊
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Oh, game on. My blog is full of pessimism and what not. You blog is exact opposite.
Well, there are always two sides to a story, aren’t there?
And exactly, it depends on the person and more importantly the situation/circumstance /likewise the person is in. Don’t you agree?
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Oh my friend if only you saw me a year ago. I was the epitome of blackness.
If you read some of my posts, you’d know im trying my best to change that. For my sake and everybody else’s 😋
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Add a bit more darkness to the epitome and that is me.
I still am.
Well, I will check for sure. But I am pretty much sure that they won’t be as dark as you say they are.
Well, that’s the best thing I heard all day. All the best. And thanks for not being a competition, not that you had a chance. 😆
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Of course they won’t be as dark here. BECAUSE the whole point of my blog is centered around trying to be a better person 😋
No competition eh ? If i ever do unleash my darkness, I think it’d give you a real run for your money 😆
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Well, that’s so nice to hear. Best wishes.
Like I said, not. as. dark. I rest my case. 🤷🏻♂️😝
You see. You talk a big game but there’s nothing. 😜
Acha, Tell me where and when, I’ll be there. Let the dark hunger games begin (caution: not for the faith of heart). 😝
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Faint of heart ? I have no heart 😆
Obviously ! If you’re judging me by my blog, its gonna give you a very skewed impression.
Whats shown is never as revealing as whats hidden 😎
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The very fact that you are making an effort to bring out the optimism is the indication of a heart. A beautiful one, indeed.
Oh no. I haven’t read your blog yet. But I have some points based on your approach at things. And it’s no where near dark. 🤷🏻♂️
How do you come up with such beautiful lines?
And what’s hidden is your optimism, the light that are you slowing digging it out and is getting brighter and brighter every moment. 😊
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Takes a beautiful heart to appreciate one
There might be hope for you too 😉
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The absence of darkness makes kne appreciate the light.
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The absence of heart makes one appreciate a beautiful heart.
Hope? Me? Not even in my vocabulary. 😜
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I think it is in ur vocabulary, since you just spelled it out pretty clearly 🤣
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I just copy pasted your usage of that word. 😜
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I doubt I can win with you.
Im young and tired 😋
Ive already conceded Your highness
Enjoy your victory !
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Well, you could try, but now that you have given up, there’s no turning back or second chances at this. 😋
I am actually.
P.S. You should see my Instagram page.
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Ah, so much difference between giving up and knowing when to step back with your head held high 😋😋
Share the link pls and I surely will.
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Oh, you gave up, alright.
You head is help up now, after you turned to the other side, not before. 🤷🏻♂😜
It’s called- find the color game.
http://www.instagram.com/imidnightshadow
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Believe what you will, friend.
I graciously conceded because I’m the yin to your yang, the compliance to your tenacity 😉😄
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I did. And you too know I am right. 😛
Yin to my yang, compliance to my tenacity. Haha. It sounds as if we are two pieces of a broken puzzle waiting to be solved, and that we combined will make it whole. 😆😁
Nonetheless, I like the analogy there.
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Your instagram is beautiful ! I love the black and grey tones😍 sadly, I’m not on there or would’ve followed
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Beautiful is your territory.
Darkness is mine. 😆
Why, thank you. You are too kind to say that.
Oh, well, wasn’t looking for a follower though. 😁
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Hehe. No I know you aren’t
But I would have, if I could. 😊
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Haha, I know. I was just kidding. 😆
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This is incredibly relatable and a really flowing read. I look forward to reading more stuff by you!
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Why, thank you. 😊
You’re too kind to say that. Really appreciate it.
I would have recommended to read my previous posts, just that they are dark, darker and darkest. So, won’t advice that. 😬😁
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So glad the protagonist sent that text anyway! “After a point in time, we regret the things we don’t do, more than those that we’ve done.”(or something like that)
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This is so true. You’ve written it so well. Complicated thoughts explained in simple words.
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Why, thank you. 😊
You are too kind to say that. And really appreciate you dropping by. ☺️
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My pleasure, really.
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😊😊
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The dilemma relatable to everyone out there but not everyone is brave enough to talk about it boldly.. You expressed all the emotions beautifully 👌
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You’re right.
Why, thank you. You are too kind to say that. ☺️😊
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Even i overthink n regret it.
But what I regret the most, is never sending that message
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High five again. 😬
Actually, this doesn’t come under things people high five for. But still. 😬🙊
You couldn’t send that message because you didn’t have my number, right? Wait let me just share 😬😜
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Umm…I didn’t understand ur question
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I was trying to make a joke. 🙊🙈
You said that you would regret not sending the message.
That may be because you didn’t have my number to send the message. So, if I share my number you would be able to send the message and not regret sending. 😁
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No…it was abt sending message to someone else…to someone u wanna talk to but never did..😂
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Yeah me. 🙄
That was because you don’t have my number. Wait sharing right away so that you can do the honours. 😂
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Where are you sharing 😂😂
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To your email? 😁
I mean should I ? 😊😂
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Sure…why not ??
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If only I had your email id, I would send it right away. 😁
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My email I’d is on my contact page 😜
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Ah the contact page.
Sending email right away. 😁
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😊
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Just sent an email. 😁
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Oh… I’ll go check then..
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Thank you. 😊
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Sent✌
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Sent again. 😁
Do send the message, whenever you are free. 😜
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curiosity is something which kills without wound!!
loved your work! 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀
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Haha. Well said. 👌🏻
Thank you. ☺️😊
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😀 😀
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😊
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Hey!
Why are your thoughts so gloomy?
I read a few of your posts and they seem really dark.
Is everything all right with you?
You can reach me out whenever you feel its too much to bear.
Moreover the profile pic you’ve used is dark too.
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Hey,
I am sorry about that.
If I did actually write what was in my mind, you will be scared!
Gloomy is a nice word choice, but it gets more dark.
Honestly, no! But, that is alright! I have come to accept the things getting messed up. (Things= life)
Why, thank you ! You are too sweet to say that! I will definitely do that! Like how would I?
On second thought, I don’t share not because I can’t, but because I don’t want to drag someone down along with me, because that’s what will happen.
Yes! For the same reason that I am dark on the inside. You haven’t seen my instagram, I guess!
Also, you are too kind. Thank you. The world needs more people like you! Stay blessed!
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Quite realistic 👌
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Thank you. 🙂
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👍
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😄
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