Borrowed Time.

Crumbled pages lie silently at the corner of the room as the ink went dry, the thoughts astray. The mind was a fighting a war within itself. The heart, well it did it’s job, without a care in the world. The walls absorbed the silent screams. The prayers resonated in the enclosure, breathing the aroma of its depth and finally settling at a nice corner of the room. While the night danced in the glory of the dark, the silence prevailed in the epiphany of the mind and all around. ” Tick. Tock. Tick. “

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The echoes of pain glorified the dark corners of the ignited mind. What was wrong? What was happening? Questions piled up, like the torn off pages flickering in the silent monotony of the cold breeze which had the half laden thoughts of the days not yet come.

Words. An anagram playing in the multitude of emotions, thoughts and whatnot. A random apprehension of a sophisticated mind. Why are they so far away? Why can’t they come closer? What do they mean? Why don’t they make sense? Is this the right script? Does this reach your heart?
He stared at the mirror long. He tried to look into himself, through the very fragments that kept him together, intact, as broken as he might be inside. He wanted to see what was inside of him, how broken can a person be. He wanted to see what he was made of, whether the broken memories ever heal. He was searching for something within himself, something he felt missing. He was not sure what. He was not sure why. There were questions that haunted, haunted as the answers were just more questions.

Letter. They were letters that hold the story never to be seen, never to be adapted, never to be lived. A letter, which was a warning, an indication of what went wrong. A foreword to the people to tread carefully. He had carefully handcrafted it, wrote the best god damn letter he ever could. He spoke of the misery, he spoke of the lost self, he spoke of great many deals. He ended the letter with a farewell. It was his last letter signed off with a “I am sorry, Good Bye”.

Here he was again, 10 years later contemplating over the same letter, still broken, still finding his way, still trying to perfect his last letter. The time was a factor that stopped for him a decade ago. He was a lifelessly alive, stuck on the past notion, not moving an inch forward. He tried to end it, end it all, the agony, the pain, the disappointment, and in the end even his life. Time, for him was a reminiscent.

He was living on borrowed time.
The time which is not his.

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354 thoughts on “Borrowed Time.

  1. Wow … i mean wow … just the way u craft and weave the words together is so beautiful and absolutely touching . i felt connected …. Hang on im reading a few of ur posts now !!!

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  3. Hello there,
    After a very long time, I came her again. It is nice to see you blogging. I read some of your posts, I felt like you were in the process of repairing yourself to make a better and corageous person (we all are).
    I would like you to read some “Robin Sharma” or “Dale Carnegie” or “Rhonda
    Byrne”, these will definitely help you, I started reading these and felt an unimagniable amount of positivity and refurnishing!
    Cheers 🙂

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    • Hey,
      I really appreciate you dropping by back again. Most of the people seemed to have left me dry.
      Repairing is a too deep of a word. Damaged is the word. Yes, it is not easy to put the broken pieces back again, but sometimes, it’s just possible at all.

      I will have a go at the recommendations. You’re too kind.

      Thanks. Cheers. 🙂

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      • Cheers to your renewal days!
        Circumstances are not bad or good, our response towards them make them ugly. I relearnt this fact today! Entrances are a hard time, and mood swings can be horrfic! Go ahead, and accept your flaws, give them time! And sketch your life again! I’ll be here for you 🙂

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      • You have no idea how sweet you are.

        I completely agree. Our response to them makes the final cut.
        I know they are. My parents are behind me to get through at least one. Hasn’t happened yet.

        I have accepted my flaws. And you know what I found out, I can’t change them. And how much ever I want to get past these so called flaws, I just can’t. They are there everytime reminding me. I have come to terms with them actually.

        So sweet of you. I don’t think I want to sketch my life, again. Not with these flaws. Ever again. But thank you very much. 🙂

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      • You’re welcome. 🙂

        It’s quite a video you made there. Positive, Inspiration. Well done.
        If you want to be more honest, you have covered almost all aspects, that hinder the normal growth of a person, personally, socially or professionally. But you haven’t told anything new. Everything there is known. Even the most uninspired person knows what needs to be done, what they don’t do is taking that single step.
        In my opinion, talking about the things that pull us down won’t be doing much help, because I am one of those people and frankly speaking I don’t feel it, that need to change myself. May be I am a lost cause or may be I am too adamant to consider any change, but you do get the point don’t you?

        What gets to people is personal experience, something they can relate to, if not relive it. That is what connects with people.

        But again, this is just my opinion.
        All the best for your video series. I do hope someone gets inspired by them.

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      • Pleased to hear that. I was definitely waiting for a comment like that. I understand and feel this too. I am planning to come out with a series of personalised content. I believe inspiration comes from everywhere and nowhere, it can come from a photo -movie or an incident. I will definitely take your views in to point while I am working on this project of mine. Thankyou so much for your valuable inputs. And I know you are trying in your own ways to have a better life, to have a better you. 🙂 keep working! Being positive can be hard , sulky and tough. But keep your hustle.

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      • I am glad to hear that. I hope to see more of your videos.

        Actually, I am not trying to better my life or a better me. I have failed it a decade ago. Being positive is hard, I get it. That is why, I don’t try to be. Most of the times, it’s not even my choice.

        But thank you.

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      • I am sorry to hear that. But I believe there is no one who can do a better job in your life than you yourself. Cheers to the ownership you take in your life! I hope to see you bright and nice in your colours!

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      • You don’t have to be sorry about that. It isn’t your fault.

        I agree to that. But I don’t take ownership, and I believe that is the problem.

        I hope so, but it is pretty mono and I know it. The other part is I can’t change it.

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      • It is going to be in the same shape, until you my friend decide to take it forward!
        I am so happy to inform you about my advances on the same project: “The Spiritual Series”.
        Your remarks helped me put up better content, thankyou!
        Following are the links to the available content:
        Gratitude: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ywwAY8qAVs&t=13s
        Acceptance : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RS8M72PM3HM&t=28s
        Visualise : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBbmVrn-9CQ
        Do tell me how you liked it. Feel free to add in your remarks as well.

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      • Don’t worry. It’s not my special day. It’s actually the exact opposite of that.

        But it’s 19th Jan originally.
        Though officially 15th July.

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  4. You construct your own reality, your own univers, through your unique perspective and experience of time. You have not borrowed time my friend, you have created time, and are the master of your own universe through your perception of the world.
    All the moments belong to you
    You are the center and the seed of creation

    You are also a talented writer I’m glad I popped in 🙂

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  5. Your choice of words is so amazing and enchanting that one can never stop reading the whole of your article!The best part is that you have words to describe every emotion,every place and surrounding that seems to be difficult to be explained in words.

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  6. Did you just say that you wanted to give up the name? Well, let me tell you this you have an enchanting choice of words. You display emotions in a way that I fell in love with the emotions but there’s an air of mystery around them so yeah you’re an enigma.
    Keep Writing!
    Enigma 🙂 ❤

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  7. I din;t believe this : I scrolled down some 276 (!!!!!) comments to be able to pen mine, but I’ve forgottten what I actually wanted to say by the time I reached the bottom!!! 🙂
    So Ill just say – excellent post. I’m glad I visited!!

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  8. I really like this post. This is not the longest one you made but the content ia pretty solid. It might be because I have the same thoughts about time. I like the title too, borrowed time. Darn! I was gonna use it on my post, now it’s not original title anymore. 😂
    The only problem I have is, it has lots of comments, took me a while to go at the bottom. 😂

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    • It was a few years ago. And I seem to have lost that creative touch recently.

      You should write that post anyway.

      And I am sorry about the comments. Sincere apologies. Have to see what I can do about it.

      Thanks for dropping by and well your sweet comment. ☺️

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      • Don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault… It only means you did a good job in writing this because many can relate.
        Too bad you lost your adrenaline, I guess, in writing like this. Hey maybe you can bring it back.. 🙂
        Which post do I have to write?
        I have some thoughts about the word magic as your prompt. I hope I can give justice to it. 🙂

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      • I will wait, it’s worth waiting.. you’re a talented writer… I can feel your writing… I don’t know why you said that your topics are dark, maybe some but not all.. 🙂
        I’m glad you went back writing on this site.. 🙂

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      • You’re welcome… hey its not only me who testified that you really are a good writer, better than good I guess.. the comments speak for itself…

        Haha, aren’t we all lazy at times? After all it’s weekend..

        Hahaha 😂😂😂
        Your monkeys remind me of Bruno’s song:
        Today I don’t feel like doing anything
        I just wanna lay in my bed
        Don’t feel like picking up my phone
        So leave a message at the tone
        ‘Cause today I swear I’m not doing anything
        Uh I’m gonna kick my feet up and stare at the fan
        Turn the t.v. on
        Throw my hand in my pants
        Nobody’s gon’ tell me I cant, no
        I’ll be loungin’ on the couch just chillin’ in my snuggie
        Flip to MTV so they can teach me how to Dougie
        ‘Cause in my castle I’m the freakin’ man
        Oh
        Yes I said it
        I said it
        I said it ’cause I can
        Today I don’t feel like doing anything
        I just wanna lay in my bed
        Don’t feel like picking up my phone
        So leave a message at the tone
        ‘Cause today I swear I’m not doing anything
        Nothing at all
        Ooh hoo ooh hoo
        Hoo ooh ooh
        Nothing at all
        Ooh hoo ooh hoo
        Hoo ooh ooh
        Tomorrow I’ll wake up do some p90x
        Meet a really nice girl have some really nice sex
        And she’s gonna scream out this is great
        I might mess around and get my college degree
        I bet my old man will be so proud of me
        But sorry pops you’ll just have to wait
        Oh
        Yes I said it
        I said it
        I said it ’cause I can
        Today I don’t feel like doing anything
        I just wanna lay in my bed
        Don’t feel like picking up my phone
        So leave a message at the tone
        ‘Cause today I swear I’m not doing anything
        No I ain’t gonna comb my hair
        ‘Cause I ain’t goin’ anywhere
        No no no no no no no no no oh
        I’ll just strut in my birthday suit
        And let everything hang loose
        Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
        Oh, today I don’t feel like doing anything
        I just wanna lay in my bed
        Don’t feel like picking up my phone
        So leave a message at the tone
        ‘Cause today I swear I’m not doing anything
        Nothing at all
        Ooh hoo ooh hoo
        Hoo ooh ooh
        Nothing at all
        Ooh hoo ooh hoo
        Hoo ooh ooh
        Nothing at all

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      • You’re welcome 🙂
        I forgot to delete some lyrics that I wish I didn’t include… 😂😂

        Anyways you’re welcome.. looking forward to your new post.. 🙂

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      • There’s not much to read on mine, lol! Just short poems and some mehmeh.. haha 😂😂😂
        I think I’m becoming more of a reader here in wordpress than a writer.. 😂😂😂😂

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  9. You have this amazing ability to weave words into something so powerful and beautiful.. I love reading all your posts and the project that you’ve started is a great initiative. That’s why I’ve nominated you for The Awesome Blogger Award, as you absolutely deserve it. Here’s the link: https://hiraachaudhry.wordpress.com/2018/01/30/1111/
    Please do check it out and I’m sure your readers would love to know more about you as well. 😊

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